A stranger In The House by Shari Lapena

‘Why would you run scared from a happy home?
You’re waiting for your beloved husband to get home from work. You’re making dinner, looking forward to hearing about his day.
That’s the last thing you remember.
You wake up in hospital, with no idea how you got there. They tell you that you were in an accident; you lost control of your car whilst driving in a dangerous part of town. The police suspect you were up to no good. But your husband refuses to believe it. Your best friend is not so sure. And even you font know what to believe.’
I recently read a book called the couple next door which was also written by Shari Lapena, so when I saw this it was a must have. I was not left disappointed. From start to finish I was engaged and found myself constantly trying to guess what was gimg_2018-1oing to happen next. I couldn’t put it down.
Karen and tom have been happily married for two years, when one night his wife has an accident which changes everything. When Karen comes round she has amnesia, she can’t remember why she was where she was. She’s found in an area that she would never normally venture out which is the first clue, that something must have been very wrong.
When a body is discovered close by to where Karen had her accident, questions are asked all round. With all fingers pointing at Karen she find herself in a very difficult position. Karen begins to wonder who she can trust and who really does trust her. We see this couple go through so many emotions, just unearth more old secrets.
As these secrets come to light the more pressure is added to Karen and Tom.  The neighbour, Bridget, acts like she is Karen’s friend. She supports her but she does also have an ulterior motive. Bridget always seems to be available at the right time and has came to the rescue many times.
As Karen melts down Bridget steps in.
I have tried my best not to give much away just the part that already explain themselves or piece together who is who. This really kept me guessing the whole way through I couldn’t wait to get home and start it again.
I would recommend this book to anyone who like twisted thrillers, that keep you guessing until the end. It’s one of them where, everyone’s’ background has been in the making of them as a person. Yet sometimes this can also be there biggest undoing.
Enjoy this read guys!
Thanks for reading
T x



Sometimes I wonder why I do it?

Hey everyone,
Why I do I look at something that winds me up and why do I even let it wind me up? I guess it’s one of them strange things we all do to some extent. Unless I’m just a crazy human on my own here?
I know that I won’t feel better by looking at old photos where I was happier, thinner, more me or looking at photos of everyone else who has moved on with life. I look through my social media feed and it’s all the same. The latest wedding, the new born baby and brand new home.
It seems I’m just stuck here at a red light but everyone else is going through on green. I had a life plan. Or I thought I had a life plan. When that plan starts to go wrong, and it’s to daunting to start again where do I go?
Don’t get me wrong I’m happy in my day to day. But when everything around me changes, will I still remain the same?? Potentially if I stop torturing myself with the things I look at, will I tart to make a new plan to get there? Who knows. My head is one great big mess right now.
What if the choices I have made are wrong?? How do I know what to make right
T x

When every way to turn point down, how do you get back up again?

So guys, this is where I’m at today. It’s one of them days where I’m weighting up so many different options.
I’m debating if I should say on my job, if I like my home and if I know what makes me happy. Truth is, I’m not sure anymore?!
I’m not sure what truly makes me happy, all I know is where I’m reading for example, In the current moment I forget about all my options, I just enjoy what’s coming next in a book, for example.
I think that’s why I’m stumped now, this isn’t a book is my real life and I don’t know what I want the next chapter to be.
All I know is that I need to stop and think about what I want and what will
Make me happy. Will I make the wrong decisions? Probably yes, I normally do. But how do I stop dwelling this time?
Im sure it seems simple from the outside, do what makes you happy. But how do you stop thinking about all the other people’s situations effect. It’s very hard to weight out the future before it happens, yet still I try for some reason.
I feel like I’m a dead end and need to hangs my future sometimes, but it’s also hard for me to when I worry about how it effects everyone else as well? It’s hard sometimes.
So yeah basically, I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place! Do I need to be more aware or more selfish for my own happiness.
Which ways left and which ways right
T x

My head song

When it’s wrong yeah it’s wrong but it feels so right,

because it’s you that I want holding me tonight,

and I don’t want to give up, let go and start again.

So I hold my head high and I pretend,

that I’m ok and it was just a game,

I’ll let you go, but you’ll never know!

And now your gone and I miss your name.

I can’t keep banging my head against this wall.

I’ve left a mark and it’s starting to get sore.

I wish you knew what you do to me

But with your eyes closed you’ll never see.

I’m aware this makes no sense if you can’t hear the tune in my head.

Thanks for reading

T x

If your always the go to who do you go to?

Hi all
Just a quick thought of the day while I’m in the moment.
Ever find yourself being that person that everyone can talk to? The one that adapts each person individually and helps them through their problem? The one that listens to everyone and works out how to make them feel better? The one who’s always got a minute spare for everyone else?
At home we never have a moments peace, we constantly have someone coming round to share their problems. Don’t get me wrong I don’t mind, I like to help others. Sometimes we would just like some quality time. I think that we don’t get this time together because we’ve always got people around.
At work I have around 50 colleagues, each as weird and wonderful as each other, they won’t mind me saying that. Anyway because I know my colleagues I know when they are upset or having problems. I never turn them down and I’ve always got a minute spare. I help colleagues through many circumstances and sometimes this can be hard. It can be difficult to get the work life balance at times.
So when I get home and this cycle continues, it eventually gets too much.
I mean, where do we go when we have problems? Who do we turn to? If your always the go to then who do you go to?
T x

The kind words of others

Morning all,
Yesterday I had a really positive experience so decided to write about it today. It all started yesterday morning when I was watching a live debate about how ivf should be cut from the NHS to save others instead.
This is obviously a very controversial topic, one which I can relate to first hand. After 4 miscarriages and 1 ectopic pregnancy I found my self infertile. This was huge for me, all I ever wanted was a family and I had a doctor telling me that naturally this wasn't ever going to happen. All my hopes and dreams smashed in front of me. I was left wondering if I could even cope with ivf.
We had our first ivf appointment a few weeks ago and have our nurse planning appointment in September. We have to pay to go private for this treatment, costing around £6000. If it wasn't for my parents I doubt this would become a reality. The sad truth of it is, we can't all afford to do things this way.
In my view why should we paid for something other people can have so carefree. I'm not entitled to ivf on the NHS because my partner has an 8 year old daughter from a previous relationship. Is his daughter automatically mine? No of course not but this is how it's seen by the NHS.
For me this already makes the process unfair let alone the other contributing factors. On the debate they were saying how infertility is not an illness and that you don't have to have children so why should you automatically be entitled to free treatment. It was as clear day that this woman was fertile!
After watching this programme I found myself feeling disheartened again because it feels like the process and this cycle will never end. I decided I would tweet my angry opinion on this. To my surprise I had a message pop up from an old friend I haven't seen in more than ten years.
She told me how she had her 3 on the NHS and they all failed, she had her 4th privately and this resulted in a miscarriage. I instantly felt like I wasn't on my own anymore. It's sad but true that others experience can bring you back to the real word.
We chatted for a few hours about how friends don't understand and don't say anything, about how it seems like a taboo to talk about it, and we both couldn't believe how many people are still in the dark about our treatments. If people don't understand they automatically judge without knowing circumstance.
If it fair to stop giving people the gift of life? Is it wrong to do it on the NHS when we will end up going private anyway? My friend would have spend £24,000 already for nothing! I'm glad she reached out to me so that we can now help each other through this rollercoaster. Others kindness amazes me. On a day where I was angry, wound up and feeling that I had lost all hope. A bit of light came in to help me through. Her words of kindness and her caring helped me more than she will ever know.
The programme was suggesting we should save lives rather than giving it, I understand where they are coming from with this but let's not just pretend the NHS only save lives. They also treat the alcohol and drug addicts, the down and outs. Day in day out. That's a waste of money. Not giving someone something they may never have anyway.
My final thing to say is… we do not choose to be this way. We are just gods unlucky few.
Thanks for reading
T x

Decisions, decisions.

Which ever way I look it,
it all comes down to a decision.
Sometimes I wish I could just decide,
right there and then.
What’s right and what’s wrong?
For me, I seem to debate with myself a lot about the pros and cons of any decision,
in any situation. I feel myself bad just by thinking of an outcome. I admire people who are able to quickly think it’s as simple as a to b, rather than why a to b!
I wish I was more resilient. It’s like the angel and devil are sat on my shoulders all the time, they have been for years. What’s right? what’s important? How should I think? Am I doing this right? It’s always questions and decisions.
As I write this now I think. Maybe if I stop asking the questions the decisions will disappear. Impulse.
T x


Hi All
It’s been a while! I’ve been busy studying and working recently but I finally got to catch up on a few books. This is one of he best I’ve read in a long time. It’s full of so many twists and turns. It just kept me guessing right up until the end, once you start you just can’t stop.
In this book a woman and her husband, ANNE and Marco, go to the neighbours dinner party, leaving 6 month old Cora at home. ANNE was against the idea to leave Cora in the first place but Marco persuaded her, this was on the agreement that they took it in turns to check Cora every half an hour.
This is going well throughout the night and the couple relax and have a few drinks with Cynthia and graham the neighbours. Anne starts to get anxious and wants to leave because Cynthia has been flirting with Marco. They argue and leave at one thirty leaving it an hour since they last checked.
When they returned home the front door was a jar, Cora was gone….
I can’t spoil this one too much! This story shows various possibilities of where Cora could have gone, and who could have taken her. It shows the struggle the parents face with the press and how it effected them.
There were so many twists and turns right up until the end. I can’t recommend this book enough.
Happy reading all!
Thanks for reading
T x


Reasons Why I Miss You. To My Best Friend Always.

I miss you just because,
It’s quieter than it should be,

I miss you just because,
There’s a hole where you used to be,

I miss you just because,
Your stories kept us near,

I miss you just because,
I can’t tell anyone my fear,

I miss you just because,
I don’t understand why you had to go,

I miss you just because,
Now you may never know,

I miss you just because,
You were the best person to me,

I miss you just because,
I could see what you couldn’t see,

I miss you just because,
I wanted to help you grow,

I miss you just because,
My love for you I didn’t show,

So you now you exploring a new,
Please just know a part of me is with you,
I hope and pray that your all okay,
My thoughts of you will always stay.