Mini egg cheesecake to beginners 

Hi all,

I must admit I’m not known for my culinary skills, but this is my first cheese cake and it was seriously easy to make!!

What you’ll need 

-300g Milk chocolate digestives
-125 g of Butter – Melted
-750g of cream cheese such as Philadelphia.normal supermarket brands do still work.
-100g of icing sugar.
-2 teaspoons of vanilla extract (vanilla bean extract does give a bit more flavour)
-300ml of extra thick or double cream.
– 2 bags of chopped mini eggs.

1) I put the biscuits into a food bag and then crushed them with a rolling pin. Try to separate them as much as you can for a better base.

2) Melt the butter until runny, then pour over the biscuits. Mix them until they start to stick together.(I used a foil dish as above ,just because it was easier.) When all of the biscuits are covered put them into a dish or bowl that you plan on using to chill the cheesecake after.

3) When your base is flattened into the tin pop it into the fridge to chill.

4) To prepare your cheesecake filling, simply mix all of the above together, I started with the cream cheese and icing sugar first. I did use a mixer for this then added the mini eggs (this can make your mixer sound like it’s going to break due to the noise).

5) I then added the extra cream but mixed this in by hand. When the mixture is thick and starting to hold, remove base from the fridge and cover with the mixture.

4) I simply sprinkled hot chocolate on the top for a quick dusty chocolate look, then used mini eggs to decorate.

This is a recipe I found on another site but ammended. I made this with my step daughter on Thursday and it’s become a bit of a routine to cook or do arts and crafts every Thursday!

So for anyone who hasn’t made a cheese cake before or wants an easy recipe to do with children…this is the one for you!!

If you do have any questions do feel free to ask!

Thanks for reading
T x


Baby doll. 

Hey Guys
Today I have finished reading Baby Doll by Hollie Overton. Below is the blurb from the back of the book.

You’ve been hold captive in one room.
You’ve been mentally and physically abused every day since you were sixteen years old.
Then, one night, you realise your captor has left the door to your cell unlocked.
For the first time in eight years you’re free.
This is what happens next.
I started reading baby doll a few days ago and have just finished. I enjoyed this book for many different reasons. One of the main reasons I like was about the twins and bond they have always shared and there story. This is something I wasn’t expected because there were no tell tale signs that anyone else would be involved apart from the victim and her captor.
Lily and Abby have always had a close bond until one day it all changes, what starts as an argument over a jumper ends up being Lily’s last day with her family for 8 years. In this time lily has been raped and abused by the man who took her. He also impregnanted her as well and she had sky as a result of that pregnancy.
I love that sky gave lily a reason. In real life sometimes people don’t keep the baby because of the reminder. The fact that Lily had no other choice is one thing, yet she choose to protect her child at all costs ever if it meant she was hurt in the crossfire.
The best thing that happened to Lily and Sky originally was when rick didn’t lock the door. This is where the girls journey really starts. Things happen for a reason and Rick leaving that door unlocked was a mistake, but Lily’s bravery to go through the door and not come back really took balls. She did what she had to do for her child.
After their escape things are plain sailing, Sky is now in a totally new environment and she has never been outside before so it takes her a little longer to adjust. Lily is the same and also struggles with her release. However she’s determined to make Rick be known to all so he gets locked away for his crimes.
Rick is caught and within no time other girls are discovered two, sadly one has passed and the other is very injured. This just makes the media turn crazy and they all campbup outside taking away the privacy. Lily and sky are trying to adapt to life outside the basement and it seems they are always faced with new challenges.
Abby is Lily’s older twin sister, by 6 minutes, and she’s had her own struggles since lily going missing as well, she’s battened drugs and addiction and hasn’t really let anyone get close enough in fear of hurting them. Part of Abby blames her self for what happened to Lily so vows to make it up to her.
Lily, Abby, Sky and Eve( the twins mum) help each other through the after math of Lily’s disappearance. They help each other through the many challenges they face together.
Without giving too much away in the end I believe justice is done for Rick, he may have thought abou going on the run but that didn’t quite become the reality. I would recommend this as a good book, very gripping. There aren’t too many twists and turns and it makes pretty easy reading.
Thanks for reading
T x

My choice

Hey All,
I was just about to rant because my angers so built up, but just as I was about to send I decided to stop. Not because I didn’t want to rant because I really do and there is somethings that frustrate me so much because I don’t understand why things happen. I wonder what makes people to decide to make the decisions they do.
Be this a simple do I wear this do I not? Do I eat that or not? What ever that decision it maybe, there are always these questions where ever we go. I just wonder sometimes if people ever stop and think ‘ how would this make them feel’ or ‘I wonder why not everyone is involved’. More so the first one the second is more my current situation.
Today it was my granddads birthday so we all went to my aunt’s house and had a Christmas dinner, which was really, really good. My brother was late to the meal as he had been out in London the night before. Normally I wouldn’t bat an eyelid at this but he had been up there with my dad, step mum and step sister. The other side of the family. Basically the whole family not me.
They said they went halves on tickets for a meal at a posh restaurant. My issue is that when they decided to show what a fantastic family they all were all over social media, did they think of me being at home seeing it and thinking ‘why aren’t I involved. ‘or ‘Why wasn’t I offered to do something like this.’ I even had the weekend off.
However although that was my initial thought, when I actually thought about it,  I have always felt some what a second class citizen. I’m not as la-de-da as them because I know where I came from and who I am. That side of my family are the ‘posh’ side, not that its all been earn entirely  honestly but hey I know that so you cant tell me I don’t try enough. At least I’m honest with what Ive got, and I achieved it myself.
So the choice is…  I can let myself get ate up by not being included
accept that I’m just not like them anyway.
Would I rather be myself, true to my values and have earned the little  I do have. Or  not know what it to have a family who truly look up to you and can share anything with you. Unfortunately my other half of the family or more money orientated. The rest of us on the second side are much more happy and content. We can tell each other what we want and most importantly not be judged for what we have or who we are.

ps. Family portraits by pink used to be a great song for a shitty family

Apple crumble pies 

Hey all,

Yesterday we decided to try some apple pie/crumble muffin size. And I must say the results were pretty good, we couldn’t go far wrong because I brought the pastry and filling and crumble ready made. For me each thing itself would have been a separate challenge, so I thought if I put it all together ready made I’ll know what it should taste like, unfortunately I didn’t manage to get any pictures. I didn’t think about it until after. Below is what we did it’s a really simple dessert I think.

1) Grease a muffin tray- these usually come with 6 spaces.

2) Cut ready made shortcut pastry into circles and gently press them in to each space.

3) Fill with apple pie filling. Don’t film right to the top. Allow room for the filling.

4) Cover the top with a crumble mix.

5) Place in the centre of the oven at 180 for around 20 minutes.

6) Check throughout baking as you don’t want the topping going to crisp and burning.

We finished these off by also making apple crisps for the top.

All in all really quick, easy and tasty dessert. Easy to Bake with children. Now I know it will work and taste great I will be trying this again but using my own individual ingredients rather than ready made. I admit to do like a quick trick when it comes to cooking anything. I didn’t choose cooking in school I chose resistant materials instead!

Thanks for reading

T x

Testing patiences 

Do you ever wonder if certain people think…hey I’m going to piss you off just because I can? I’m pretty sure that’s what one of my parents purposely does. 

So my car broke and I am just having a general conversation about how I’ll sell mine and then downgrade. Thos Suddenly that means I should take out finance on a new car! Well in practice that sounds good, but why would you suggest a car you know I hate?! Oh and my pay has been reduced so I really can’t afford a pickle?! It seems bizarre I mean if you don’t know what to say then just don’t say. 

I think what bugs me most is a new car for the parent would be a drop in the ocean, but god forbid you would want to offer to help?! 

Maybe I’m just being selfish but I had to ask about ivf in the first place, this was never ever offered to me just out of being kind. It started off as we would like to take you all on holiday- I said no thank you hopefully I will be pregnant by then; I just got the reply ok well you don’t mind if we still go do you….Knock yourself out. 

Ok then we will pay for ivf! Great but I would of found a way to pay for that I will never get he chance for a holiday. 

Anyway selfish moan out! 

Thanks for reading 

T x

Meat Ball Rolls

Evening everyone!

This afternoon we decided to try cooking something a bit different we found this great website called twisted! It has lots of different unusual recipes – basically normal recipes but twisted! …We decided to go for the meatballs in a roll!

We made our meatballs from scratch using beef mince, garlic, parsley, breadcrumbs, Parmesan and salt.

We then cut holes in all the rolls that were big enough for the meatballs (ours seemed huge) then, after browning the meat balls, we put them inside the rolls.

We then added a marinara sauce to the top and finished with grated mozzarella. We then put them into cook for 20 mins on temperature 180c.

These were so filling two absolutely left me stuffed. I would recommend anyone try try these out on a lazy Sunday, sod the roast dinner I prefer what I today so much more!

Oh and needless to say … diets just don’t work on a Sunday! Thanks for reading guys!

T x


why do you seem hate me 

And make me feel so low 

When every words a negative 

It’s Another hurtful blow 
I love you so much 

For all that you used to do 

But why is it suddenly 

That I mean nothing to you 
You used to tell me it would be ok 

And always hold me tight 

Now it’s never me and you 

I miss our cuddles at night 
It’s like you’ve just switched off 

And turned you back on me 

What happened to that time 

When we were so happy 
I wish we could go back 

To the love of another time 

I long to hold you in my arms 

And you’ll be back to being mine 

9 days smoke free and lost half a stone 

Hi all

It seems  weekend has been a turn around, I didn’t have much faith at the beginning of the week and it’s now just looking up, I got to spend time with my beautiful gappy step daughter this evening. She wanted to have her hair curled so we spent a bit of time playing hair and make up. 

I love doing things like this with her and it was a great way to test out my new BaByliss – curl secret – hair curler. As you have to keep the one side facing your head it’s hard to do sometimes. Regardless we ended up with this beautiful result! 

Tomorrow is our arts and crafts day for Valentine’s Day so we are both looking forward to that! We found some great ideas on Pinterest! Will update soon, 

T x

I could kick myself 

So far it’s been a week and a half since I wrote my post about things I don’t want to give up…unfortunately I haven’t been as true to myself as I had liked with them. The main one being the blogging?! 

Maybe it’s just been a long week for it, for some reason when I’m st work I just don’t seem to be able to ever get 5 minutes away from everyone to write, there’s always someone wanting g to tell me useless information or fry on my shoulder (which I don’t mind). 

But so far within the last two weeks, I’ve pretty much stuck to my diet, exercised more than usual, given up caffeine and stopped smoking! Not bad for a couple of weeks. If like to say I feel totally different and more refreshed more alive, but right now…I don’t. I feel like sometimes nothing I do is good enough it’s just another change I’ve made. I am definitely going to make more of a concours effect at work to think. No break time and I stop To do what I want to do! 

Thanks for reading 

T x

The company 

I work for a large company that’s all over the world in many countries, it was in America until it failed as well, which I must say doesn’t surprise me that much. We are always reminded that anything we say on our social media is a reflection of the company. So your not allowed to express yourself incase something’s inappropriate or offends someone else. This company already controls my frigging home life and all aspects of my day to day as well as social media too. 

I think what annoys me the most is that we are constantly reminded, how we are meant to show out personalities and be ourselves…. except its all utter crap. If they really thought that they wouldn’t hold people back who want to develop, just for having a different opinion. 

You have to fit a certain mould, of course they would never ever admit to do that it would always be we care about what our colleagues have to do…rubbish complete rubbish. You either fit the mould- shut up and get on with it or leave. Many times that’s been made clear. 

I think this giant company doesn’t actually realise what they do on a day to day because they are focusing on the wrong places of the business. If it’s not about saving money or making it, they don’t Give a toss. Everyone know your look after your colleagues and the rest should take care of its self. 

No no no they just aren’t content another with that! I don’t think they realise how much pressure they are putting on people and how wrong the things they have been able to cut is unreal. I’d love to know the point of the union because combining two huge job roles and removing pay isn’t what I would call fair. 

This company convinced me to drop out of colleagues and work for them in stead. It’s easy.. just become a manager… WORST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE.

I could of been anything, done anything, and I was naively too easily led. I may not be able to back out now because of the grown up things…mortgage to put and such but I have now decided not to put them first now. 

After constant criticism, cut pay, no development at all, refused opportunities im the one who ends up being performance managed because the job its self is ridiculous. So thank you mr ***** I haven’t used your name but one day I’d love to give people a real insight into your company. 

Treating problem right can be the difference. 

Be approachable or don’t be approached which would you rather? 

Thanks for reading 

T x