Leave

You can call your brothers

You can call your whore

You’re the mug banging on my door

You can scream and shout

You can let it all out

But I won’t let you in

I won’t let you win.

So leave me now

Like you left before

We know that’s all your good for

So we will call it day

As it turns in to night

This time my friend, you’ll remember as the battle you didn’t fight…

The Fear C.L.Taylor

Morning everyone!
Anyone who knows me, knows I am a fan of C.L.Taylor – Ive read all of her books and pre ordered the new release for next year! When you get a writer with a style like Callys it makes you know you’ll enjoy what’s coming next.
The fear again, did not disappoint. When Lou was younger she ran away with her teacher to her happy ever after- when that didn’t happen and she escaped she vowed to make sure no one else has to experience what Mike did to her.

When Lou finds out mike might be up to his old tricks again, she can’t stand by to see another young girl – Chloe – get hurt or worse. Lou takes things into her own hands and then realised she has left a few holes in her story and what she’s been doing.
Lou has good intents with what she does to Mike but she hadn’t through about what she was going to do once he was in a compromising position. With no one listening to lous fears about Chloe, she wonders if she is doing the right thing at all.
Lou seeks an unlikely ally who, along with Chloe, could help bring down mike once and for all.
Where is mike?
What has Lou done to him?
What helps her ?
Is or was Chloe ever in any real danger?
I highly recommend this book and didn’t want to give to much away about the ending for you.
If anyone else has ready the C.L. Taylor books would be interested to hear your thoughts?
Thanks for reading
T x

The Lying Game by Ruth Ware

Hi all,
My second review of the day is on the lying game. Again I read this some months back so I have tried to give it a quick scan to relay this accurately for you.
The lying game starts based on friendships from the past. Kate, Fatima, Thea and Isa have a secret. Isa is the character who is recalling the tale. The book is wrote from her point of view I believe. She and her friends haven’t seen each other in many years and all of there lives have moved on.

The story starts with us knowing the girls have a secret but we don’t know what that secret is. Even when you think you know there’s a chance you don’t! The girls come back together to discuss what happened all those years ago when Kate’s dad tragically committed suicide.
They reminisce about the summers they used to spend at the mill together and talk about how things went so wrong. What the girls don’t realise is that Kate has a secret of her own, and this is what prompted her to call them all back to where they lived all them years ago.
The end is good and you don’t see it coming until you get to a certain point and you think you can’t come back from that! Highly recommended.
Sorry to be so cryptic but I don’t want to give the story away. I would recommend this to anyone who likes to put the pieces of crimes together.
Thanks for reading
T x

In a Cottage in a Wood by Cass Green

Hi all
My first review of the day is on in a cottage in a wood by Cass green. I read this first about 6 months ago but still remember how this book made me feel.
This is a gripping unusual story that keeps you guessing who is who and what is there relevance.
The book starts tragically but this paved the way for the story to come. Neve is minding her own on the Waterloo bridge when a lady approaches and hands her a envelope after a brief exchange she calls someone and jumps off the bridge.
Neve ends up going up Isabelle’s cottage in the woods – that Isabelle left to her. Petty shin cottage.. The cottage is not what neve expected, there are bars on the windows and the whole place has a deserted feel to it. There are several locks on the cottage, which rings alarm bells to Neve.
However, never has nothing else that’s pressing her to get home so she stays there for a while and meets the neighbours. Everyone has a view on Isabelle and some are willing to share their stories, others are not. Neve, Begins to get freaked out with things happening around the cottage and thinks this must be why Isabelle left.
Neve meets the locals and they are mostly warming, and start to fill in a few blanks for her. Without giving too much away there are parts in this book where you think you’ve worked it out- then realise you may not have at all!
Great suspense builder and a creepy psychological thriller built on the secrets that destroy.
Thanks for reading
T x

99 Red Balloons by Elisabeth Carpenter

Hi all,
I seem to be on a roll today! 4th short review of the day! Some of these books I have read in the past so it’s hard to remember the detail around what happened and how. But not with this book- I remember it clear as day- which is usually a good sign!
When grace goes missing on her way home from school her family goes into turmoil. Grace has always been able to walk home from school but has never been late before.
The longer that grace is missing the more the family seems to fall apart. It becomes clear there is a secret between Emma’s husband and her sister but does this have anything to Do with the disappearance of Grace?
To add to the suspicions around the Aunty and the husband, Emma’s mother is also acting strange. In the readers head we believe that this is because Emma was adopted when she was younger, although she has no recollection of this. This story has so much more than meets the eye.
Who has taken grace?
Will she be returned alive?
Which one of the family is responsible for this kind of upset.
Highly recommended book and a brilliant gripping story!
Thanks for reading and again is you have come across this book before – let me know your thoughts
T x

The Liar -Steve Cavangh

Hi all
I’ve you’ve ever read a Steve cavanagh book you will not be disappointed by the rest of the books in the series. As normal for me I started on book 4 and went back to read the others.
The Defence
The Plea
The liar
Thirteen
As mentioned before I tend to buy books on offer with a newspaper- gives me different genres to compare.
If you like books with a bit of corruption you will love this book. Eddie Flynn is a brilliant lawyer who used to be a con man. Although Eddie has left the game behind him ,he will still sometimes rely on dirty tactics to get what he needs.
Eddies latest case starts when a child goes missing, given the first book (the defence) where his own daughter is missing it’s struck a cord close to Eddie who takes on the case even if it may cost him more in the long run.
Leonard howell’s daughter goes missing and he’s the prime suspect. With Leonard in prison Eddie must do what he can to prove his clients innocence, which sounds easier than it is.
Is Leonard innocent?
Did he kill his daughter?
If he didn’t who did?
There’s a lot of questions to answer while reading this book and it constantly keeps you guessing, without revealing the story you will be surprised what people in power can do.
Thanks for reading
T x

Perfect silence – Helen Fields

Hi all
Another gruesome thriller review for you all! I must say before starting that this is part of a series and I started and on the last one. Others from the same author are as below:-
Perfect Remains
Perfect Pray
Perfect Death
Right from the start there is drama in this tale. When a girl goes missing and turns up dumped in the road in Edinburgh everyone is stunned to see the state she is in. She had no chance of survival and yet the killer still released them, ensuring they spent their last few breathes desperately trying to get to safety – when they would never be safe again.
This is a good detective story as they, DCI Taylor and DI callanach, try to piece together two major ongoing instances to try and see if there is any link between the two. The city has been taken over by a number of unfortunate events, girls are turning up with the shape of a baby caved into their backs and stomachs, then dolls made from the victims as well as a number of vicious slashings mainly on the homeless.
The two officers investigate the crimes but you also have boys about there story and background which gives the book more stability and keeps you guessing both on the crimes and on the personal lives of the officers.
I could feel the end building as we had to be getting close- wasn’t let down at all by this boom and will definitely I back and read the first 3- I believe the characters remain consistent but the scenario changes.
Great read – Recommended to people who don’t have a light stomach.
Thanks for reading
T x

The Perfect Neighbours

Hi all
It’s been a while since my last blog but I haven’t stopped reading in between so look out for more book reviews soon.
The most recent book Ive read is The Perfect Neighbours by Rachel Sargeant. I highly recommend this book for anyone who likes stories with a gripping, twisted storyline.
Firstly, the perfect neighbour is a brilliant book that’s defiantly not all lovey Dovey, so I’d like me, you also like a good thriller this is the place to start.
Helen has just moved to Germany to support her husbands role at a international school – teaching German. The neighbours are quite clicky and it’s clear there is a ring leader of the wives. Louisa’s husband Damian is the schools head teacher and a lot of other teachers also live in the same street.
In my head I pictured the estate to be kind of the the stepford wives, Louisa is queen bee and the other wives follow her lead. Helen and Louisa have never seen eye to eye and we start to build assumptions of what Louisa up to, and with who. Helen doesn’t like to follow the crowd and often goes solo, which has landed her in trouble on more than one occasion.
It’s not just all about the wives and what they get up to, as the husbands also have their fair share of secrets between them. The secrets get revealed as the book goes along but I didn’t see end what happened in the end happening. Very good ending and unexpected!
It’s 5* from me!
If anyone else has read this book please feel free to also share your thoughts.
Thanks for reading
T x

Is it Endo or is it me?!

Hi all
I know my posts are a tad sporadic, but when something’s hacked me off I feel the need to share .I’m sure this happens to many women with endometriosis and those who may yet to be diagnosed.
I had to have my annual meds review at the doctors today and I never really know what to expect. I Always think they are doing to stop my medication and leave me with nothing.
This wasn’t quite the case, I did get new medication but I don’t feel this guy understood it….which is why I have questioned is it me.
He started by asking me why I was there, which always baffles me because I have to be there to have the med review otherwise I wouldn’t need to see them if I could repeat. Especially in there because they said I had to be.
I started by saying I take my codine, pill and naproxen as and when needed but someday it still doesn’t help. I said how even after washing Up or standing for a period of time, the pressure on my lower back and tops of my shoulders is agony. My lower back is the worst, after a day at work I ache the most and then can’t sleep. I told him that I get wound up and hormonal which causes the pain to get worse and I shouldn’t if my pill controls that. I said how some days I get so low and worn out with it through not sleeping that I just wish I wasn’t there at all. He dismissed this.
He has suggested I try new pain killers and has yet again referred me to physiotherapy and exercises. I have done this years ago and I don’t think there will be any benefit to it whatsoever. It just seems like a never ending cycle of changing medication for no reason and failing to address the potential problem.
He told me from what your saying I think you shouldn’t blame it on your endometriosis, as if I was making it seem worse because of what I have. The problem with an invisible disease is that just because you cant see it doesn’t mean it’s not there.
So I’m left just feeling deflated again wondering if it’s me and I’m doing something wrong or if it is all linked. I just think if the exercises and tips didn’t work last time, why are they going to now.
Anyone else got shitty doctors or problems like that that can relate…I feel you
Thanks for reading
T x

People not numbers- The joys of Endometriosis

Hi All,
This is one that medically only women can relate to the pain and discomfort caused by this invisible disease, I suspect a lot of men also have to watch their girlfriends, wives, mothers, sisters and other ladies in their life go through this too. So here it goes….
Ever go to the doctors looking for help get absolutely no where and think… why do I even bother!
Some of you may know from my previous posts that I suffer with a condition called endometriosis. It’s just one of those that’s a constant niggling.
I’m not one to continually moan about it I just take pain relief and carry on however sometimes it can take it’s toll. So when the person who you are allowed to moan to about is disconcerted where do you go from there?
I called a few weeks back to request medication as I had back spasms and The Dr, let’s call her Dr.B, was ok but a little reluctant and suggested I try alternative methods such as he coil, sorry guys tmi!
I did as Dr.B suggested and booked an appointment to discuss this. I was already flustered after a hard day at work and had noticed myself being a little more inconsistent in my moods, I may have been more touchy when I got there however.. she said ok what do you want? I said I wanted to take about other methods to help the condition. Her advise was ‘I suggest you don’t forget to take the pill or you can have the coil- up to you the best suggestion is a hysterectomy but I’m guessing you’ll want kids of something one day’ now writing this it does not include the tone!
She made a passing comment about how she didn’t know how or why it happens but there are always the three myths that could explain it.. I googled his it came up with 1) your too young 2)your lying 3) you caused it. Looking back I wish I had known this at the time I can’t believe the audacity
It was as if Dr.B was totally bored, had no idea why I was there, it’s like she forgot that she had asked me to come in. I was under the impression she was going to help and discuss options but instead she was just well it’s that or that crack on! Didn’t review any medication, didn’t suggest any natural remedies and didn’t empathise in the slightest!
People like Dr.B are the reason things are missed these days. I needed to talk about how the change in hormones would effect my mood, so that I didn’t end up going back down the dark road I did before. Instead it left me thinking, who can I actually talk to when I feel low. All I had gotten was well I don’t know or how it will change until it happens.
These professionals are meant to help and support us, We rely on the Dr.B’s in this world to help us . it’s hard enough having to deal with the condition but to know how your going to feel one day to the next, or act one day to the next can be even harder.
We should be able to trust the people in our doctors surgery’s to help us but instead they just push you away instead. For 10 years I have been out at the bottom of the pile, for 9 years They were unable to diagnose me and when they do it’s still not enough to get help!and dismissed by this surgery but who’s actually going to listen to my complaint! They make it impossible to do!
So …here I am having a rant and filling you in on why doctors need to treat patients as people not numbers!
Thanks for reading
T x